My Life

Sepertinya saya dah merosakkan satu hubungan yang terjalin...
Semua ini adalah kesilapan saya sebagai seorang teman...
Salah saya untuk campur tangan dalam urusan mereka..
Sedangkan perkara yang sebenarnya saya sendiri tidak tahu apa yang berlaku pada mereka..
Salah saya untuk terlalu melindungi..
Salah saya kerana memarahinya pada malam itu..
Apa yang harus saya lakukan pada masa ini..
Saya ingin menyepikan diri..

In the middle of night

Papa...
Tahun lepas masa yang sama, tarikh yang sama...
Sekarang nie nong sedang packing barang tuk balik g tenom..
Masa tue mau bawa ur body there....
Pa...nong x pernah rasa yang papa telah tinggalkan kami...
Seperti sebelum nie..papa tau mcmna kehidupan kita kn..
Sekarang kmi dah xda tmpt mengadu..well u know mama..
Ssh sgt mau dscuss ngan dia...
Papa...i got my result..same like before..the same i want to told u last year...
OMG!! Pa i really can't believe this..really hard for me..
N if u know..mama love u so much...she said that she always had a dream bout u..
now she always not feeling well..don't know why...
abg also take an advantage with mama..
Mama always hope something from him and same like before..abg jony need to cover him....
Sist amy never change his attitude..i hate that oo..
really..if we are using only 1 sen pun of her money...OMG!!! like we are killing ourself oo....
Mamy life is getting better...her fiance give a good car bout them include mama, tutung and kakak...
You know what..last holiday all of us balik kg oo...
Aaron are so talkative..he like to share everything...
aaron lil bro xla manja sgt cam dia...
If u can c erica wif ann waa...so funny..
ann like to ejek his sist...if erica nangis dia pun bt mimik muka n nangis knon2..
xtau sapa ajar dia camtue...pastue kn punyala jht dia pa...
dia suka tarik rmbut n pukul org...cian apple...jdi mangsa dia..
Ya i forget to introduce u...apple are grown up..
dia xpyh ckp byk pa..like mumy like daughter...u know bibie better than me..
so can't explain la...hehehe...
Abg jony pnya relationship xtau la pa..hope can fid someone for being my sist in law a.s.a.p...
And last but not least..i want to tell u something...
last month i went to medical check up...the doctor said that my ginjal ada msalah...dia ckp sy overdoss..i nver think bfore do something rite..
so need to drink a lot of water...xbleh mnum bergas...
i try to follow the instruction but...hmpir sbulan dah sy msih skit prut pa..
i don't know...sy dah jaga pemakanan sy hbis2...sy mkn skit jak tpi blik2..
tapi sakit nie x berubah...i'm worried bout this..really2...
Klu ada cuti sy mau blik kg...
mau sruh anty bt med check up d hsptal..
dah gtau mama..tpi dia ckp gastrik...i don't think so pa...
nie my body....sist amy tkut ada mslah jntung...but i can run...xda msalah pernafasan so far.....nevermind la..as long as my body can handle it rite...pa..i stop here..i really hope u can red this...

ourself..

How pity we are...
How dare them are...
Don't she realize that u love he so much..
oh no!! please...back to the reality..
if i could...i'll take him from u..

Hidup Seorang Manusia

Hidup seoarang manusia tidak dapat diketahui dimana penghujungnya...
Kita tidak dapat menganggarkan riwayat seorang manusia..
Sejak kebelakangan ini..sejak menghidap penyakit ini...
sering bermain di benak fikiran bahawa ajal telah hampir...
Tidak putus perkataan maaf keluar daripada bibir ini untuk meminta maaf...
Andainya memang sudah itu takdir buat diri ini...
Maafkanlah segala kesalahan dan halalkan semuanya....

I will Always Love u..

I will always love u..
remember that song?
I know that both of us being so "dingin" since this holiday..
i do't know why..
i try to reach u but i can't..
it's hurt and i'm hurting myself..
i want to be at ur side like before.
but i know i can't..

xmau rasa perasaan tue lagi..
sakit bila melihat kau berada disisi orang lain..
maafkan diri ini..
u r not mine..
Apapun perasaan boleh disembunyikan..
tapi tidak pada diri sendiri..
saya sayang kamu..