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Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Trust..


Tadaa....that mas me wearing the white singlet with my niece..
she is more bigger than me right..hehehe

What is the meaning of trust??
Why it's so hard for me to trust someone..
I'm not perfect too..
I just wonder why i can't trust them...
I really care n love but why..
Is jealousy is the best way...
i'm scared of losing them if this situation has no conclusion...

What i know is I'm trauma with all of this thing..
repeated again and again..
then when i can't trust you all what should i do..?
please...prove to me that i can trust u...


Dear Chenta...


Hurm.i just finished all my work..
suddenly i feel like i miss u...
i miss to talk with u..
i'm sorry to ignore u..
i didn't meant it..
but i'm too busy..
i hope you will understand my situation...
I'm not the person that will find you just if i have problem..
No..i didn't meant it..
Love u Angel Of Darkness..
Sincerely from the bottom of my heart...
you are the only n one my bestfriend....

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Dedicated to Mr SyafiQ..

Dear SyafiQ,

1St of all i would like to say HANTU KO fiQQQ
then congratulation...hehehhe
sy sgt happy dgn ur status now...
i wish both of u will married soon....
as long i'm still study here..
then easy for me to go ur wedding..
tue pun klu ko jemput la..hahaha...
Start ur new life...
N i really hope that girl can bring a lot of happiness for u..
No more turn back k...
lpas nie apa da mau bt ko xpyh kisah..
da bkn lgi dlm hdup ko..
okay friend...
sy doakan moga c mimie tue la jodoh ko...
hehehe, smoga mama ko pun happy dgn da...
anak menantu yg bru...so raya thun nie ada sdh tlong mama ko..=)

Tpi kn sy mrjuk oo ko ndak ctau sy ko pigi luar Malaysia...
hurmmm..ndakda la sdh ajak sy g tgok wyang nie kn...
isk3....hahhaha....just joke k..

Ur Friend,
Budak kecik c Bebeth..

Outing Day...

bLA..bLA..bLA...
Arinie sy, Lyna n Anna berjln2...
Setelah berkecil hati dan tension dgn beberapa perkara..
Mamy c pei pei pun bgi idea..jom kita bjln menghilangkan stress...
Kunun la..padahal mmg ma bjln2 nie..
Dipendekkan cerita kami pun bjln la...
Mula2..g mkn...arinie mkn seafood...
hAHAHAHA....bila la mau insaf nie...
xpala plan2 bha kn...
pas mkn sy bwa durg g bwah...
sbb sy mau beli broadband...!!!
Ya sy sgt excited coz i have my own broadband!!!
yeah!!! tpi sejenak sy berfikir....xpala bgila adiah kat abg sy....
hahahaha....budddduuuuxxxx...ndak ikhlas nie...
hurm...mencarut jak keja...
lpakan pasal broadband...
beralih ke wayang...cmnala blh2 kmi x prasan yg c alice ngan c wawa tgok wyang yg sama
n cmna durg ndak dgr c lyna teriak punya main kuat..
yaaaiiiii...tue bukan wayang antu...tpi lucu...heheehehe...
bek kmu g tgok..tjuk da..."Hantu tanah kusir"...
pastue blik c ewin,ped n zul ambil..
well2...msih g spti sblum nie...
xpala...if i'm urs then i'm urs..if not apa blh bt...chill....!!
life must go on...

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Friend...

Are u sick??are u crazy,stupid or what....
hahahaha...here once again....my bad words come out from my mind..
Out just like that..
Why do you must pretend in front of me..
I'm wondering..i hate to know about that..
Funny when you keep telling me that you are sad...
You have problem with her n bla bla bla..
But when i view your facebook then see proud to have you..
i love you...is that kind of word show that you n your stupid g********d have a problem..
i think your brain is under your feet..
For your information..why i am mad right now is...
You burden me with your problem....i need to give your advice and so on but the reality is you are happy with her...
Waste government time..and that is why i really get bored to be friend with you..
Stubborn and selfish..and please do't you ever dare to say
"SOMBONGLAH KO NIE SINCE ADA BF"...please put a mirror in front of you FRIEND!!


Thursday, January 27, 2011

Slytherin

What is the meaning of slytherin..
yala.klu dlm harry potter ya sy tau nie kump yg jht skit..
actly nie nama team futsal sy..
ya maybe stu ketika dahulu eya tpi skrng x lagi (x psti g)...
hurmm,ssah juga bha kn..
sy pun mm ndak pndai main..
tpi agak2 la bha sy pun ada ati n prasaan..
nak tau x knapa sy x suka main ngan kmu..
coz settern of u like to blame the keeper klu kita klh..
isk...sy pnya koordinasi mmg x bgus pun...
sama2 juga kita pun..
kakak sy ckp kmu pun slh juga..klu kmu defend baik2 ndak juga te'gol'..
so same like me la..sy bkn keeper antarabangsa cam keeper malaysia tue..
jauh sgt beza kmi tue...

1st sy x suka kmu blame sy if kita klh dlm satu2 game even only friendly match..i've try my best..klu rsa dri dah bgus dgt do gnti la keeper..
2nd kmu suka nak pksa2 g main...padahal kmu x juga brhbis..n kwn2 kmu klu x pegi x pla pernah kmu mrh kn..lain joooo...
3rd masa ikut pertandingan bola tmpar tue...kmu dah tau sy blik km ckp jak la bha ko ndak pyh dtg..nie ssh2 blik sni sy lngsung kmu x bgi main..lgi kecik ati kmu bgi bju sy ngan org lain..yaii...
sdhla buang masa n tenaga..kmu bt rsa x bslh pla..
4th tdi kmu gtau slytherin smua g main..me??? xda pun..so that's mean sy bkn slytherin g la....
eeeiiii..apa2 jakla....anyway thanx coz being my TRUE FRIEND

Girl

There was no reason to be with u..
sedih bila ingt ayat nie..
tpi azam tahun baru sy ndakmo ingt bnda2 lepas..
yang sdah berlalu biarkan jak..
semua org bt ksalahan..
cuma smua nie silap sy bla terlalu memedam..
ya sy tau sy x berguna..

heee~~funny oo kn..
sy slalu hrp org fhm sy..
tpi sy mcm ndak prnah fhm org..
kcian anak org sy skitkan ati..
nak ati sndri dijaga tpi ati org lain ndan dijaga..
silly me oo kn....

ee..i feel guilty oo..
i wish u were here when i want to talk all of this thing..
i lve u so much mr dale...mr sinchan...u r the one

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

My Life

Waaa..again i'm sorry for my follower coz msti everytime me mencarut here
kuarla tmpt kmu kn..sorry k..
4 this few month and all da time sy ada masalh..
masalah ne sbnarnya dtg dri sy..
so cmna pun skrng sy kena tngung la..
dah bt slh kena tngung...
like u say "lama2 ko akan tau"..

ceta punya ceta kn...skrng me oredi decide like this..
i mean this is what we want..
u pun dh ckp bnda tue..
n bnda tue termelekat in my heart..

so skrng ceta psal org lain..nie kwn sy juga..
srng cam cnn la pla..smua ceta kwn di ceta blik sni..
bkn pa lgi baik ceta d sni drpd sy bgatu org lain..
nti bilang mengumpat oo..

kwn sy kata dgn bf da u make me happy..
1.bila nyanyi lagu endless love tue..
2.Bila u slap me
3.when u hug me..
4.when u cry for me..
5.when u sleep beside me
6.bila u cut ur hair n kasi bdri da...

(i do like everything bout u...terutamanya bila bnda tue ko x pernah bt dgn org lain..
that show u love me more...)

wah..sy ckp pelik ko nie...
tpi bila fkir blik..well btul juga pla..
yg da bt pelik2 smata2 tuk pmpuan tue namanya pengorbanan..
even da slap my friend..that show that guy really care..

Guilty Me..

For the rest off my life...
this is my big decision for me..

words of the day..
~Ndakda gunanya simpan perempuan macam ko~
(i don't like that word...really don't like that..make me
sad when u maki2...make me hilang cnfident..)
~before pun prnh ckp kn yg me nie org yg paling truk
(worst of the worst in the world..)
~sometime when u talk like that make me feel that diri nie lgi truk drpd
pmpuan2 yg ko knal sblum nie..

***other girl can make u happy kali***
that is the negative side..

##positif side##
~always with me in whatever condition or situation
~klu me cenggeng da akan ckp...please jgn cenggeng lu
~my 2nd bank...owez give me money n jaga my mkn n mnum..
~my bestfriend..
~owez jdi pendengar yang baik..

~actually bila kita fkir ttg kburukan org kn lgi byk kbaikkan da g kita x ingt...
maybe it's hard for us or only me..well ya..from what u said last nite mksud da
xda kesan juga kn..

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Kesedihan

Sy xtau napa sy sdih..
ya sy msih bersedih...npa...
sy msti kuat tuk smua nie..
sy msti ingt bhwa bkn sy sorg jak d dunia nie..
ada org lain d sekeliling sy...
masih ada insan yg berkeadaan lgi teruk dri sy...

sy xmau nangis lgi...waaa..
lemahnya sy nie..
sgt lemah...
sy kena kuat...
jgn pernah fikir bhwa dri sy sndri..
jjgn pernah mengalah...

xpala..x slalunya smua org d atas..
mgkin msa niela sy brada d bawah....
aiya...stiap post sy msti mlbtkn perasaan kn..
sorry ya....just un "follow" me or jgn baca pa yg sy post g pasnie..

i miss u dad..
cengengnya sy

Stress

Hurmmm...stress kah sy?
sy xtau apa yg jdi dgn dri sy..
kcian org yg ada d sblh sy or sklilig sy yg slalu kena mrh..
sy bkn mo mrh..tpi ko sptutnya knal sy lbih dri org lain..
ntah bla la kmjuan akan muncul dlm hdup sy...

me n my sist always said..if ada papa kita ndak akan jdi cmnie..
sy stiap hari rsa cmtue...
if ada papa mmg ndak akan jdi cmnie...
for the 1st time of my life sy kna gni...
sy xtau napa..sy x blame tpi sy kcik ati..
sy mlu..tuk stu mngu ne sy dah mnta tlng sgt rmai org...

Yaa....u know what..
mom make a big mistake..
don't knowla either mama or our really RICH cuzzy yg slh..
but for me both slh...
sapa suruh da g sbar ceta stu kg c malu mama yg mama nie
nama jak family teacher but miskin juga...
mama pun decide tuk ambil apa hak da..
then they fight...
mcm besa anty z..msuk cmpur...
n the result is...kita kena halau kuar dri rumah nenek..

i'm so sad...
bkn sbb kena halau..tpi sy xmo kuar dri rmah tue..
sana sy besar...sana sy nmpk papa sy...
sanala papa sy jaga mkn mnum sy....
sanala tmpt papa sy kena strok...
sana juga tmpat papa sy meninggal dunia..
sanala papa sy slalu tngu sy time sy blik dri kk dlu...

Skrng my dad dah xda..napa nak ambil my memory with him....
napa msa rumah tue buruk kamu x kisah pun..
masa kami tidur dengan air hujan,panas matahari
kamu smua ndak mau ambil pun...
napa masa rumah tue dah cntik,dah slesa tuk tngl
bru kmu kata itu bukan hak kami...
Kenapa??Why GOD...
is this is ur test to my family...
is it????

tau x btapa skitnya hdup bgni dlm beberapa minggu nie..
abg pla, ada gf tp gf tunang ngan org lain...
ya..my fault g mrh da..sy x ska abg sy kena bt gtu..
we r human not a doll chicks!!
ko dtg umah kmi..ko tdo stu blik ngan abg sy..
smua bju dlm ko pun da ko smpan dlm almari abg
tpi ko msih leh bgi alasan g...
sy x ksah klu ko tnglkan abg dgn cra yg baik..
tpi ko tipu kmi smua...
ko tipu....sy xtau cmna khdupan ko nti...
ko ckp ko x ready..ko tipu c amai..
ko ckp ko mau bt rumah bru...aduh....
GOD?? where r u....why??

Dad, i don't know la if u can read all of this thing....
mgkin papa tau juga kn...even in ur real life papa
xtau bljr gna bnda nie......
pa......no one care

Saturday, January 8, 2011

KAWAN......FRIEND...

True Friends
There are many people, That we meet in our lives.
But only a very few will make a lasting
impression on our minds and hearts.

It is these people, That we will think of often
and who will always remain Important to us as....
TRUE FRIENDS.

Merepek lagi...
skrng nak ckp n memenatkan diri utk menaip psal kwn..
kwn yg sjati skar dicari or ditemui..
yes!! agree with that..
sebenarnya apa gunanya seorg kwn...
bgi sy kwn adalah sorg yg akan ada tuk bntu or sharing
dgn ko apa jak situasi yg ko hadapi...
TAPI...
nama ssh sgt nak cri kwn yg btul2..
nie my anak buah yg ajukan soalan..
rumate,housemate or clasmate pun kita leh ckp kwn..
ada mcm2 jnis kwn...
ada kwn yg dgn kta time snang,ada time ssah jak, ada pla kjap ada
kejap g ndakda cam chipsmore...

hahahaha..nak share ceta kwn sy..
da nie kn peramah juga..mcm sgt peramah..
snang juga da cri kwn..
tpi da slalu ngadu yg wlaupun da gtu
da msih rsa snyi g..
da ckp kwn2 yg ada d skeliling da cm ndakda..
da feel empty...
so sy tnya la napa pla blh jdi gtu..
da ckp smua durg ada geng sndri..
so sy tnya ..jdi ko bkn geng durg..
pastue da ckp..
kwn2 da slalu ckp blkang n cam dak ska ngan da..
xtau napa..xleh nak explain...
dlu time kmi skolah da mmg sorg yg aktif..
trus sy tfikirla mgkin sbb tue org ndak mo kwn da..
da ckp g..mmg adala mlut2 yg ndakda insurans tue tgur da psal slalu dpt tgas dlm klas da..
sy ckpla apa mslah if dpt tgas...bgusla durg free g x wt kerja..
hurmmm...da ckp da pun xtau mo explain cmna g....
hurmm..bngung kn...nie ntah kwn jnis apa..kwn kuat jeles kah apa ka...

pastue ada g..tpi nie org terdekat sy la..
da ckp housemate da..
japp okay jap ndak...pelik..
tba2 pndai mrh, ndak tntu psal pndai ndak mo layan org..
apa kes...
jdi sy tnya g..kerja sy nie bertanya jak...sy ckpla..
apa juga ko bt smpai da jdi gtu ngan ko..
da ckpla mgkin kwn da ndak ska tngl d umah ne..
lgi stu sblm nie da cm pmls skit...
jdi mngkin kwn da x ska..tpi skrng da ckp da dah berubah..
blik smua kemas..ndak bising2...
tpi msih juga..jadi
sni sy jdi penjahat la..sy ckp bt jak blik apa yg da bt sama ko..
sbb ko bknnya ada slh ngan da...
ne mmg ajaran yg x bek..hehehe

Ragam manusia..mmg payah mo cri kwn yg btul2 kwn..
even me...hahahaa..agak keterlaluan ya mengaku cmnie..
xla sy nie kdang2 jnis yg dluankan kwn2....mgalah jak...kunun la...
mmmm sy akan dhulukan kwn dlm smua aspek...
tpi thun nie sy sdar..yg sy x perlu bt smua tue...
mmgla stiap org kena ada kwn...tpi apa gunanya kwn yg x
menunjukkan diri tue sbgai seorang kwn yg btul2 kwn..
i can stand on my own...sy mnghrpkan kwn yg mmg kwn..
bkn kwn yg like chipsmore..but what to do...
mmg dah lumrah manusia..xda yg sempurna even me..
mgkin tnpa sdr sy pun pernah bt bnda yg sama ngan kwn sy..
so rotation of life..i'm sorry for what i've done but i need to
teach u that me also have a feeling..not a doll..
klu ko mmg kwn sy..mustahil ko x sedar semua tue..


Repekanku...

Hye3..hurm..actually sy nie ndak pndai bha
mo ckp smething yg menarik d sni...i've no idea...
kwn2 sy yg ada blog kn ari2 update ngan ceta2 yg
menarik ati n byk pla info or ceta lawak durg....tapi kn really sorry...
sy ndak pndai tuk jdi penglipurlara..
Apapun thanx tuk yg jdi follower...scra sngja or x sngja...
thanx n sorry coz tbaca blog sy yg camndakda pa2 nie..
thanx sgt2...xtau nak hrgai cmna g...
dlu blog nie cuma sorg jak yg tau..skrng dah rmai dah coz sy ltak nama sy n kenapatan (kena tau) sdh la apa blog sy...
Klu dlu sy slalu mluah d sni la..if sdih,geram n smuala psal feeling sy..
sy jadikan blog nie cam diari perasaan sy...

smpai ada someone yg tgur..da ckp jgn ska mluah d blog..
ko ada kwn jdi cba utk ckp ngan kwn ko...
well ya friend..xtau nak xplain apa mksud kwn...
adakah kwn nie cuma skadar kwn yg ada sblh kta time snang..
or kwn yg ska2 nak mrh tba2 xda sbb...
or kwn yg cam chipsmore..jap ada jap xda...

dlu ada chat box juga..tpi since someone tegur yang jgn jdkan blog nie sbgai tmpt luahan prasan la..mnta kcian la..nak show yang manusia nie smpurna la...sy pun delete la sy punya chat box..
apapun mungkin itu kelemahan sy..
so sorry la sbb sy ndak cam ko pndai mo bceta ngan org....
tapi kn yg heran sy ndakda mention pun bnda2 tue smua...
xtaula if d luah pengetahuan sy or d luar rsa sedar sy yg sy tckp tue smua..

***the bad feeling lgi kn..org yg ckp tue cam sy knal..**
xpala...sy mngaku sy x pndai cam ko..

hurm, actly arinie nak share ttg kereta...
Bagi sy kereta nie adalah alat tuk kita guna bergerak
ke sana or kemari dgn lebih mudah....
tpi sy ada search2 jga ttg mksud keta nie..n dpt la
dri blog someone...
http://www.pengetahuan.info/tag/definisi-kereta/ ..
actly nak share psal keta nie coz x lma g sy n kwn2 seangkatan
ada tgas d mna kmi perlu kereta tuk bergerak...

hurm....apa blh bt...x mampu utk memiliki sndri..
jdi tpksa menumpang n mbyr tmbg..
xpala kn..asalkn ada drpd jln kaki g tmpt tue..
erm...xtau nak ckp apa g...
apapun hrp kmi dpt bt tgasan tue dgn jayanya..


Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Benggang..Benggong n Binggung

Terfikirla kn...
Kadang-kadang kita selalu dgr org akn ckp...
before buat tue fkir...before ckp smthng tue fikir..
tapi....boleh kah smua org buat bnda tue...
btul meh org akn fkir sblum ckp smthing...
Ya..terlajak perahu boleh diundur terlajak Kata x boleh diundur...


Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Perjalanan Yang Msih Jauh..

Ketika diri sedang khusyuk berkhayal...
tiba-tiba gatal tangan nie tuk membaca...
Baca punya baca tiba2 terjumpa ayat nie..

"Kbahagiaan dalam hidup bukanlah berdasarkan satu ikatan janji atau sumpah setia tetapi kepada gaya hidup yang bebas.."